Night time.

Well I guess it's August and I think it's time to start getting all my thoughts out again. So let's go.

So the night has come, and you know what that means, it's shit time. Why the fuck does this happen? I mean, you can be all happy and cheerful during the daytime and whenever the sun goes down it's like "shit, this sucks" you are just thinking "Omg my life sucks" and all that sort of shit. So let me tell you my friend. You are not alone. Everybody, at least once in their lifetime, they feel that way. And if they tell you they've never felt that, well they are fucking lying. 

Every once in a while people have this shitty moment when they think of their life, their achievements, their experiences and the choices they've made in their life and just say "Goodness, I'm a piece of shit" and so you start regreting about things you made in the past,  things you never got to do, and things you will never be able to do because of the things you have done, and so all mixes together and makes this huge cloud of thoughts that makes you get depressed and sad, and that ends up making an enormous hole that nobody can fix. 

It's like you've lost yourself. In fact, you have. All the confidence you had is gone, and you don't know how to get it back from wherever it is now. Friends, family, ain't nobody can help you. It only depends on you. People will give you their support and try to chear you up, and it might work at first, but when you are all alone, at night, those stupid thoughts will come again to your head, and let's start all over again. So you know what I say, just fuck off, I know it's hard not to give a damn, but dude, just, for a second, listen to you, what the hell are you saying, you are just so wrong about yourself. I don't care if you've done mistakes in the past, cause now it's time to learn from them and correct them, that way you don't fall in the same hole. Cause that is what make you who you are, and you are just beautiful in that way. Don't care what people may say about you, don't listen to those voices in your head that try to let you down. No more tears at night. 

It's time to put some self-confidence on.